AND I MET THE GAME GRUMPS AND I WILL CRY IF I THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH OR REMEMBER IT BUT THE THING IS MY MIND CAN BARELY REMEMBER IT FOR SOME REASON AND I AM TRYING MY ABSOLUTE BEST NOT TO FORGET IT YET FOR SOME REASON I CAN FEEL IT SLOWLY SLIPPING AWAY BUT JUST-
I MET THE GAME GRUMPS
I MET MY IDOL
I POSTED PICTURES ON MY TUMBLR WHEN I MET THEM AND THE STORY OF WHAT HAPPENED BUT LET ME JUST SAY-
WAITING 6 HOURS IN LINE FOR THEIR PANEL AND GETTING THE THIRD ROW SECOND SEAT IN: FUCKING WORTH IT
MY MOM HELD MY SPOT IN LINE FOR AUTOGRAPHS FOR 4 HOURS- FUCKING WORTH IT
I JUST- I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN ALL OF IT ALL OVER AGAIN I EXPLAINED IT TO MY MOMS BF IN FULL DETAIL BUT IDK IF I CAN RIGHT NOW SO I'M JUST GONNA COPY AND PASTE WHAT I POSTED ON MY TUMBLR-
SO I JUST MET THE GAME GRUMPS AND LET ME FUCKING EXPLAIN TO YOU WHY THEYRE ALL SO AMAZING-
FIRST OF ALL NINJA BRIAN WAS SO COOL AND I WAS SUPER AWKWARD BUT HE WAS SO CHILL AND NICE AND JUST LET ME FLOW-
I WAS ALSO SUPER AWKWARD WITH BARRY BECAUSE I WAS LIKE “Its so weird to see you guys in person because it’s like, I see you online and I get this feeling of familiarity and you guys just do so much for me and you guys are just awesome and I drove 7 hours through the snow to get here and just thanks so much!” And Barry thanked me and told me to have a safe trip back and the people in front of me took a while with Dan and my social anxiety got me super awkward and quiet and we both didn’t know what to say but I moved forward to Dan after and just
I gave him some Skittles and told him I stole them from my sister and hoped he liked them and told him that his old video on his depression meant so much to me and that I was going through a really hard time and he fucking HUGGED ME and told me to stay strong and that he’s proud of me and I was almost crying and I was shaking and he was so awesome and just UGH DANNY WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME-
Ross was next and ROOOOSS
I told him I loved his animations and wanted to be an animator too and he just IMMEDIATELY jumped into telling me the do’s and dont’s of animating and gave me the advice of the “Animators Survival Kit” and he was just so supportive <3
Suzy was as cute as you’d imagine I told her how cute she was and so much cuter in person and she smiled and got flustered and was like “Awww thanks so much!!!” And I told her how sorry I was that people treat her badly because she is so cute and she told me she just brushed it off and it’s probably because she’s a girl and I agreed because… It’s true guys, come on.
ARIN left to poop before I got to him but he came back after I waited a while and I gave him my picture I drew for them and the box of games and he got so happy and smiled even though he was sick and just-
THERE IS A REASON HE IS MY SENPAI AND IDOL
I ALMOST STARTED CRYING BECAUSE I TOLD HIM HOW SHIT MY LIFE HAS BEEN RECENTLY AND HOW STRESSFUL EVERYTHING IS AND HOW HE IS MY IDOL AND HOW HE AND THE GRUMPS PRACTICALLY STOPPED ME FROM KILLING MYSELF AND HE LISTENED SO FUCKING CLOSELY AND WAS SO PRECIOUS AND NEVER DROPPED EYE CONTACT AND WAS SO ATTENTIVE AND WE WERE TOLD WE COULDNT TAKE A PHOTO WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WAS SICK AND THE SECURITY GUARD TRIED TO PUSH ME AWAY AND GET ME MOVING BUT I ASKED FOR A PICTURE QUIETLY AND SHYLY AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT ARIN DID?!
DO YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT ARIN DID?!
“No it’s okay let her take a picture.”
I ALMOST CRIED JUST FROM HIM SAYING THAT
JUST FROM ARIN SAYING I COULD TAKE A PICTURE WITH HIM I ALMOST CRIED
I TOOK THE PICTURE AND TOLD HIM THANK YOU SO MUCH AND ARIN TOLD ME TO NEVER STOP DRAWING TO NOT STOP NEVER STOP AND JUST KEEP DRAWING AND I TOLD HIM THANK YOU AND STARTED CRYING WHEN I WALKED AWAY AND MY MOM HUGGED ME CLOSE AND TOLD ME HOW HAPPY SHE WAS FOR ME AND IT WAS ALL SO FUCKING WORTH IT GOD BLESS THE GAME GRUMPS
My mom recorded Arin's expression when I gave him the box of games and picture I drew for them and his expressions fucking kill me inside. He listened so closely, he barley dropped eye contact, I was shaking and almost crying, I was stuttering and he listened so much and so closely, like he was so touched.
It KILLED me inside. It still does.
He didn't lean over the table for anyone else... Or I mean, as far as I saw, I was the only one...
What he did means so much to me I don't think you guys can understand...
People like Arin because he's funny or because of his animations... I like Arin for who he is, for what he does, how he's helped and inspired me and he is just my true idol...
I want to write a letter to him... I honestly do... I'm going to write one and send it to where the Game Grumps tell people to send them games? Because I don't know how else to contact him and I just hope he honestly get's it... (If he replies I think I would just cry-)
the thought keeps hitting me that they all probably saw that picture I drew them and just oh my God... Oh my God....
It all feels like a dream and I don't want to wake up to this horrible reality. But Danny told me to Stay Strong, and Ross and Arin told me to never stop drawing and I won't.
I'm going to try animating this year, I'm going to buy that book, I'm going to try harder with drawing and find my style that isn't anime, try to get more realistic and then find a style I'm comfortable with.
I want to be like my idol. I want to follow all their words and what they said to me...
I honestly love them and I'm so happy and blessed that I could meet them...
Thank you Game Grumps, thank you Ninja Brian, Barry, Danny, Ross, Suzy and especially Arin.
I hope I don't forget this but it's slowly starting to slip away and I'm trying to hold on as tightly as possible because when I close my eyes I Can picture it all over again and feel everything and remember it all and just...
Give me a few months and I'll be okay I,D