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A Broken Heart... :iconapocalyptic-assassin:Apocalyptic-Assassin 6 4 SKETCH- TLOZ- Tirona, High Priestess of the Zora :iconapocalyptic-assassin:Apocalyptic-Assassin 6 1 SKETCH- TLOZ- Return Once More :iconapocalyptic-assassin:Apocalyptic-Assassin 4 0
Literature
13 Year Old Depression
I Walk Alone
I Stand Alone.
The cries
The lies
The deep regret.
Being alone
Could never feel so good.
Away from the shouts
The hate
The burning sensation.
You just leave your anger behind you.
When you realize no one cares,
And you can't help but wonder,
"Is there anyone out there?"
Nothing but your echo.
You go for help,
Your ignored.
You call for backup,
Nobody comes.
You cry for love,
You only have your empty soul.
Life is cruel.
Twisted and cruel.
And the people are worse.
Beatings?
Shootings?
Lives lost?
Where do I stand?
I'm none of those.
But I am
Alone.
The worse feeling above all
That you can't help but...
Embrace.
Embrace and hold.
Until you cry out of rage.
That's all it is.
Rage.
Where is the light?
I'm so afraid.
Only in darkness
That shields my fate.
Thanks for nothing.
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I confessed to my crush today my feelings for him. I had to. 
He asked me last night for tips on how to ask one of our friends to prom. I cried myself to sleep last night and then cried this morning when I woke up. 
This was the first guy I've ever had a REALLY big crush on. Like, I totally pictured us working out and dating for a while. He would make me so happy to just talk to and be near and he made me feel amazing. I'm extremely demisexual and romantic, so it's extremely difficult for me to really get a crush on someone, but this boy... He was so different and unique from anyone I've ever met before. 
He just doesn't see me the same way. 
He was super nice about his response. He apologized profusely, and I told him that it was okay, and I was okay staying friends. My friends and mother are being SUPER supportive right now and trying to help me however they can get me through this.
It just hurts so much. 
Like, mentally, I KNOW that I'm going to find someone else and stuff and that y'know, he's not the only guy in the world but like...
There are so many things I like about him. There are so many things we relate to and I felt we connected with. 
I just... I'm not the apple of his eyes I guess. 
My friend who he even was going to ask to the prom admitted to me that she only sees him as a friend but... Idk how to believe that... She wished me good luck and everything but I never got around to asking her if she had feelings for him really...
Like, mentally I know it's all going to be okay. 
It just...
It just hurts. It hurts so so much to have feelings for someone, and then see them asking someone else out and seeing how well they get along with someone else. Picturing him taking her to prom it just...
I told her it was okay. I'm not someone to stop her if she wants to go. I can't control anyone, and even with Magick, it's wrong and inhumane to control another's free will, and I won't try. 
I just... Idk guys.
My friends are being super supportive, but I keep thinking of him and it just... It hurts.
I pictured us so well together. 
I'm an 18 year old experiencing her first real heartbreak. I know it sounds super ridiculous, but I just... I mean, I knew this was coming. My Tarot cards mentioned nothing of romance. They continued to say 'friendship'. But everything still just hurts. 
I'm crying right now on an off again LOL. 
My mother is gonna be home soon and she's actually been super comforting throughout the entire time I had my crush on him, and even now. 
Idk when I'm going to get over this... Thinking of going to prom breaks my heart and my dresses to try on haven't even come in yet so... Idk what's gonna happen.
I just...
How did you guys get over your first heartbreak? When did you meet the true loves of your lives? How long did it take?
I just need some comfort from people who have experienced this sort of stuff right now....

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LaetitiaJoestar Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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TheJackOFBlades15 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
Welcome to DragonBall-ZArtist ! Dragon Ball - Goku and Krillin [Fist Pump] [V.1] 
We hope you enjoy your stay ! 
Have a wonderful day or night, Take care and god bless ! ♥
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AnimeEmm Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2017  Professional Artist
Thanks for the Favs bud!!! Sharo and Chino Glomp Icon 
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ButtSensei Featured By Owner Edited Jan 2, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
APOP I WANT A COMMISSION 

NOT BECAUSE IT'S A SPECIAL DAY OR ANYTHING; IT'S BECAUSE I FINALLY READ YOUR PROFILE CORRECTLY AND REALIZED YOU HAD COMMISSIONS UP HAHHH

Can you draw chibi versions of my 8 roommate series characters (it can all be in one picture if you want; they can do whatever you want) ( www.fanart-central.net/picture…) (the colored chibi version references of them are at the very top; if you click on the image, it gets bigger)? 

DA Comic Versions for reference: laughbutts.deviantart.com/gall…

If I do my math right, that's 118 points, right? 
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Apocalyptic-Assassin Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
I'M SORRY BUTTS BUT I CAN'T TAKE ANY COMMISSIONS RIGHT NOW ;;
I really should put that on my page...
I'm really anxious with having to put a portfolio together and working on stuff for a BS class that I can't draw that many characters ;;
I can  maybe draw one or two of them if you want? (for free since I need to practice chibi styles anyway- lol)
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ButtSensei Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
NO! CONCENTRATE ON SCHOOL AND THE OUTSIDE STUFF BEFORE YOU DO DA STUFF! I can wait until you feel up to it (if you feel up to it at all; I will not pressure you)!
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ButtSensei Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
HAHAHAHHA, Joseph just got betrothed to WHAM. I CAN'T WITH THIS MANGA
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Apocalyptic-Assassin Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
YOU'LL SOON LEARN THAT JOSEPH IS JUST ONE BIG HO-
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TOFUProductionz Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HE GOT BETROTHED TO ACDC TOO. TWO MEN FIGHTING FOR HIS HEART (AND THROAT)
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ButtSensei Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
THIS MANGA WON'T STOP TESTING THE LIMITS OF WHAT I KNOW ABOUT BIG BULKY MEN
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